I Prefer Rejection

I accepted rejection,
It was a part of my life.
Years of, “You can’t do this. You can’t get that.”
Years of saying, “All right.”

Now the tables have turned.
An experience that’s new.
A miracle occurred,
And I don’t know what to do.

I filled out an application,
Something I’ve done a millions times before.
Normally a letter returns stating,
“We regret to inform…”

This time was different
When the letter came.
The letter was thicker and bigger,
But I expected rejection all the same.

I opened the letter,
And to my surprise
The letter read, “Congratulations!”
And I screamed, “ALL RIGHT!”

I was happy… For a moment,
Then reality kicked in.
I really got accepted.
I really got in.

My happiness faded.
Completely disappeared.
I really got accepted,
And this, I realized, was my biggest fear.

My whole life I’ve been rejected.
It was a simple fact.
It was a day to day thing.
It made life easy to where I could relax.

It didn’t stop there.
The letters kept coming.
I was attracting acceptances everywhere,
Like flies to honey.

My life’s turned upside-down now,
And I don’t know what to do.
I feel like my life’s just starting,
And now I have to move.

I have to uproot my family,
And they all say it’s no big deal,
But we’re all stressed out
Wondering about our next meal.

I can’t afford this!
It’s just too much!
I can’t afford this,
Let alone lunch.

Don’t get me wrong,
I’m grateful for all of this.
I feel like someone normal
Should be in complete bliss.

But sometimes I wish that I was rejected,
That they would take my acceptance away.
Send me a letter saying that they made an error,
So here’s all your money that you paid.

But this late in the game,
It’s far too late
To try and close
The flooding gate.